Sitting on the edge of 30

So many times I sit in a car reading a running magazine thinking the next run I do will be perfect. I'm so inspired by the words on the pages. Inevitably this always happens on a dark time in my running, I go out and fail feeling worse then I did before reading anything. So here I sit again with the same thought in my head. I'm stuffed silly from dinner, contemplating ice cream, and thinking tomorrow I am going to get up and conquer the beast. So the real question is how will I make tomorrow different?
The first thought rushing to my head is that tomorrow will be the last time I run in my 20s. As of Monday I move into a new age bracket in the racing world. And it's a hard bracket. The winner of most races comes from the 30-35 especially if it is a more casual event without college and high school competition. So do I really want my last run as a 20 something to be bad? End up in tears like the last couple of weekend runs? Do I want to head into 30 something thinking I've lost my running swager? No. I want to be strong amd happy. Even if it means a slower pace earlier in the morning to miss the horrid heat of June. I want to come in and feel as strong as I felt crossing the finish swine in cincinnati.
It's all mental. Yes there are physical hurdles- the heat, the early wake up call, etc. But those don't have to throw me off my game. If I can keep a positive attitude then I can win this run and come in with a good experience. Amd a good experience can pull me through some many more tough days to come this summer. So the mental I really need to conquer is that of my own preceived failure. If I can make what I can do given the conditions a success then indeed I will win.

Still no luck

So I've been trying.  I've rebalanced my running, going out for shorter runs not forcing that to be my only source of exercise.  However the damn humidity around here is killing me at the moment.  I can make it out for about 3 miles and then everything starts breaking down.  My body will be so hot at this point that I can't cool off.  That forces me to start walking constantly and not being able to keep up running because my legs just give out.  Even though I know its the weather, it starts messing with my mental state and I start walking even when I don't need to.  It's so frustrating not to be able to run as much as I know I can.  I can run 13 miles, but right now I can't run 5!!!!!!  I'm really trying to stay positive about all of this and remember that it will eventually dry out and just be hot.  At that point everything will even out - but I might die before then.

So I have to come up with a way to combat this for now- continue to adapt- until the weather cooperates.  I think limiting runs to 30-40 minutes tops (unless weather allows otherwise) so that I'm coming in about the time I'm hitting overheat period.  If I want to run more then 3.5 a day, I need to run a two a day so that I get it.  This is not ideal but it will have to do for now.  I'll get the miles, it won't be all at once, but that will come back when the weather returns.